In Pain..

I remembered the day when I wait for the cloud-

Roar its thunder out loud.

I even not afraid- if the lightning comin’

Instead I’ll stay outside- you can’t drag me in.    

Then, why I should put up with the rain –

That made me dripping wet in pain?

Sneezing – cold, and shivering

Without anyone knows what am I thinking.

Couldn’t run anywhere, anymore –

Because my clothes even were not able to be wore.

I don’t want to be naked –

Waiting something that will come-  but exhausted.      

And let me say to you- once in my life.., 

I don’t want to see a rainbow for the first time.    

 

It’s too painful –

And you got over the rule.       

For my Rainbow ::

“it’s always being hurt - But I don’t know why I can stay.”

I wish you could be Edward and says Bella’s sentence to me that..

“If you stay, I don’t need heaven…”

Mullumbimby, 15 Nov 09

All men are the same...

All men are the same

They looked at you in the eye
Let their heart beat so fast
They told you as if you are the one
So they think they could win your heart

All men are the same

Sometimes they hurt you and make you sad
but they will say that's they way to show how much they care
Sometimes they hide their love so bad
'till it's too late and they're still questioning "are you dare?"

All men are the same

They will say you're beautiful charms
'till they got you into their arms
and..they gonna ask you to fulfill their need
Next thing they will bored and leave your bed

All men are the same

They play game and waste their time
If you complain - they will leave

They smoke, drink, and spend their money
If you moan - they will vanish

If you're a man and feel different
you'll get a woman's heart in a second..


Mullumbimby, 28/10/09

Lagi boring...ditengah hujan
6.32 pm

Fade Away

When letters gathering to words
all the alphabets was related and submitted
"It shows me a little tiny light," he says.
but without saying a word everything was evaporated

When words become powerful
instead of stating to sentences
it makes me dull
forced me walked into a labyrinth felt the numbness

When sentences engaged to a promise
and make your heart beat raise
you'd better holding your tongue and stay
but you prefer to burn it and fade away.

Sinclairs Bondi - Sydney

(Still) exhausted
16 July 09 / 10.35 pm

Tentang Dia

Tengoklah pada langit malam yang benderang
Apa yang mampu kau ungkapkan?
Menyusuri satu demi satu gugusan bintang
Bagaikan selimut malam yang senantiasa memukaukan

Tengoklah eloknya si kuning keemasan
Bersinar dengan cantik di pusat langit biru cerah
Tidakkah kau mengamati semburat kemerahan
Rikala dia terseyum saat datang rasa sumringah

Dia hanya satu- tak ada duanya
Seraya alam semesta ingin merengkuh
Si lentera pengisi yang kerap berubah
Dia yang tetap mendongak tinggi dengan angkuh

Hanya Yang Maha pencipta yang Maha mengerti apa yang dia mau
Ciptaan kesayangan yang Beliau cinta
Mungkin akan ada seorang yang coba terbang ke tempat dia di satu waktu
Namun isi hati dia, siapa yang tahu?

Sinclairs Bondi - Sydney
Exhausted

16 July 09 : 10.30 pm

To Be or Not To Be...

Hustle and bustle girls did not make me abandon from your sight
Waiting me passed by as it could scatter your darkness to a light

I knew you said something from your eyes,
Why never told me as I was a cube of ice-
That would freeze you when you’re near?
Not even simple words that I expected to hear
From you.

It’s true that I thought too fast,
Run my life in a jiffy..
Though we can’t deny that time flew the past
Went over our reach and destiny

It wasn’t your mistake not telling me about what you’ve thought about me
I didn’t blame you for every moment that we should have,
But,
I felt like Icarus, who couldn’t fly near to the sun or the sea
no way through and wandering around in the middle like a flea.

I wasn’t an angel who can release you from a guilty feeling
Nor a saint of your life that you can kneeling
I couldn’t give you a hope
Or something that you can cope

Realizing that is forbidden to get near you
As in my heart wasn’t yours.
To be with you is out of question,
But I’ll say no.

To be or not to be, that’s your part.
If you said you’re with me but I will always say I’m not with you,
To be or not to be, I believe that you
will find the way home as if you look deeply to your heart.
And leave me as a history,
of our story. ;)

Mullumbimby, 15 May 09

Note--
This is my masterpiece..
never made a touchy poem like this..
From my heart to YOU.

Is not me..

You said,
Finding me is a treasure,
Holding your mind tight to me, for sure.
Kept asking why you wouldn’t release me from your heart
While you knew that you’re not my life’s part.

Enjoying our time while we could,
Though you’re not the one that I will hold,
When I come back,
I will feel guilty as ever if we can meet,
I hope God finding a way and lead you the best
And bring you the happiness ‘till the rest

Don’t tell me that you’re happy with tears on your cheeks,
‘cos I can’t stop the bleed from your heartbroken…
And I can’t hurt you more than this.

So, move on,
Open your heart for another love,
I believe there will be love which is waiting you to approach it,
And it’s not me,

There will be someone who willing to give her love to you,
Sacrifices her life to you, hold you tight, and make a reason for you
To change your world,
But the reason isn’t me.